Are we Human or are we Dancer? * (Part 1)

I was talking with Gael, a good friend of mine, ( Thanks for the love and support dear) about the blog and how I wished I could write more frequently. The problem is: I get all the inspiration in the middle of the night ( generally around 1-2 am); and since I work during the day; well, I just can't afford to stay up that late. "You need help !" he said (understand "you got issues" ;) . To which I replied "No, it's just that I am an Artist. Art is a Blessing and a Curse."
But then I wondered: Am I really an Artist? Ok, I am a very creative and imaginative person, but is that enough to make me an artist?

So I looked up for the definition of the word "Artist" and found the followings:

- "Creative person (a person whose creative work shows sensitivity and imagination"

- "A follower of a pursuit in which skill comes by study or practice - the opposite of a theorist"

- "A person who expresses themselves through a medium"
-"Artist : A person who creates art." My favorite: Simple and straight to the point.
Although I agreed with all the definitions, I felt like many questions were left unanswered:
Why is the act of creating art so painful at times (if not, all the time)? Why is the artist a tormented soul, half free, half slave? Why does a Canvas or a piece of paper or a stage sometimes look like a no-man's land to the men and women that are to fill them? Why can't art give you the pleasure without the pain, and even when it does, why does the artist refuse to accept the pleasure without the pain?
Two days later I randomly found the following quote by Russian-born Painter Wassily Kandinsky:

"[...] Art is a power that should be aimed at developing the soul. If art does not do this job, the abyss that separates us from God is left without a bridge.The artist owes his talent to God and has to settle this debt. To do this, he has to work hard, know that he is free in his art but not in his commitment to life. Everything he feels and thinks is part of the raw material with which to improve the spiritual atmosphere around him.Beauty, whether in art or in a woman, cannot be empty; it has to be at the service of humankind and the world."

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(The rest in the following post)

*From the song 'Human' by the Killers